Where Did I Go....Wrong?

So on this path of mine it seems as though I'm pushing forward and yet the vague remnants of things that I like to attribute to the past as seeping in. Where did I go wrong?

Pause.

Pause a bit longer.

Reflecting.

Reflected.

Shaking my head and sighing as I come into agreement.

I went wrong, well I steered off path when I decided to allow the "what ifs" to determine "what happens." I veered somewhere into the line of fire as I like to call it because it seems as though only static and heat come from this direction only I can see and feel as a result of entertaining what may in fact just be an illusion.

I'm tired.

And I don't mean that I'm sleep deprived, I mean I'm truth deprived. Devastated, because the only truth deprivation that I'm experiencing is my own. Since when is life and death in the tongue of the OTHER person and NOT my own? Ahhh.....I caught myself in the moments of reflecting on where it all went down hill.

Reclamation.

A slip has turned to perpetual slipping and I have fallen. On the upside of things...I've gotten back up. Actually I'm standing now and I got back what I thought I lost when I asked "Where did I go wrong."

Well...perhaps I went right only to go "wrong" and realize I was along the intended path to begin with. The minor upset that I encountered was only a condition of the road that I have far passed as of now.

Rejoicing.

I'm on the right path heading right again.....well, at least until I have to check myself and ask the famed question.